The other day I found myself begging my 3 1/2 year old in a very whiney voice "Please, please, please just go down and see Daddy and let me go back to sleep". It is almost humiliating to have to do such a thing. Audrey is getting better at sleeping but my body is so sleep deprived that the few nights that I am now getting 6 total hours is just not enough. I need at least a week of 8 hour nights. I have spent nearly 6 months getting more nights with less then 4 hrs of sleep then not. I find myself forgetful, dizzy, blurry eyed, and irritable on more days then not.
So... when Celia pops into my room at 6 am when I just fell asleep again at 5:30 I wake up feeling as if I have the flu, honestly. My body is screaming at me, go back to sleep, go back. But Celia is screaming at me "Mommy, mommy, where's my balloon, hey Mommy I have to go potty". She leaves, I sigh, then she returns and I find myself actualy whining again, me, I am a grown up and I am whining like a little kid. "Celia, please go and see Daddy, I need to go back to sleep". Of course I know at this point it really doesn't matter, I am up. It takes me a good 30 min. to fall back to sleep and I have to be up at 7 am anyhow. So she has returned to go potty in my bathroom, why, I have no clue, but she does. I get the pleasure of wiping her tushey.. Fun times. Then she decides to go down and visit Daddy. Ahh... I settle back into my comfy bed, thinking I can just relax for 20 min and maybe that well help. Audrey decides to wake up exactly 2 seconds after my head hits the pillow. Is this some cruel joke? Really???
I also have enjoyed my almost daily wake up calls around 2 or 3 am by Celia yelling at me that I did not check on her prior to going to bed. She is asleep when I do but even if she is not, she doesn't remember me checking on me. So I get the pleasure of being yelled at in the middle of the night. This particular night she did not get up at all, I guess she had to make up for it in the morning.
I have decoded that the next time she wakes me up I am going to throw a tantrum. I an going to scream and kick my legs in the middle of the night. Perhaps that will shock her enough to just trust that I do check on her.